Happy Can Be Your Thing

When I'm unhappy I think this is bullshit and don't care. Most of the time, when I am happy and am successfully fighting my demons, I know it to be true. 

Read, "Feeling Good", by Dr. Burns to learn how to change your negative thinking. 

These Things Are A Hazard

I needed to smile today.

Boob power to all of us curvy girls!

12 Step Program For My Bullshit

My friend yelled at me for being mean to myself the other night. I love her. She and I have similar Ex stories to swap.

It's sad when I need to work on boundaries with MYSELF.

Hi, my name is Bettye and I am emotionally abusive to myself.


Self,

Shut the hell up.

Sincerely,
Me.


I need to remember this.

Wildlife In My Head

From tut.com in my email this morning:

"Do you know what happens, (name), to wildlife when left alone from intellectual minds? It thrives, because thriving is its default setting. Just look at a forest.

And do you know what happens to wildlife when given just a little direction by intellectual minds? It still thrives, because thriving is its default setting. Just look at a rose garden.

And do you know what happens to wildlife when there is too much thinking? Yeah, what wildlife?

Wild thing,
The Universe"

I was alone last night and broke my new rule of no more negative thoughts. I got myself really worked up and afraid, then started texting my mother and Partner. I really need to learn how to be alone without beating myself up.

Jeez.

I was like a punching bag for that bitch in my head.

Wth? Why are we so mean to ourselves?.

Redirection

I've just come back from the most relaxing vacation I may have ever had. After a week of staring at the ocean and my beloved family, sans Ex for the first time since we met, I've decided that I need to stop focusing on the past pain and focus on processing my healing.

Again. I'm hoping it will take this time. I'm feeling healthier and more positive than I have in a very, very long time. 

Part of my positivity is due to reading, "Eat, Pray, Love", for the second time. The difference is, this time I can relate to the author. It's not just a book about the year she took to heal after her horrible divorce, but the healing process afterward. It's a great book and has inspired me to meditate and focus on my positivity. 

It's time to heal and move on.